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Cancer, the Pandemic, America at Sea & Buddhism.

In December, 2020, my wife Elizabeth passed away after struggling for two years with pancreatic cancer and stroke. In addition, during this time, the pandemic was raging, and America was struggling with anger, chaos, and political and cultural division, in a struggle to salvage its own identity and survival. As the cancer was spreading through […]

In the End,What’s Important?

At the end of 2020, about a month before my wife Elizabeth passed away after a two-year struggle with pancreatic cancer and stroke, I was helping her out of bed one night and accidentally brushed against a beautiful lamp which had belonged to Elizabeth’s mother, and which she treasured. The lamp fell to the floor […]

Capricorn & Cancer – A Love Poem Written upon my Wife’s Passing

CAPRICORN & CANCER Love is born out of opposites colliding. Look at the universe, with its swirling galaxies of stars, whole nebulae clashing and devouring phalanxes of suns. It is not a peaceful picture. We advance by facing that which we do not know. The love that becomes the strongest is the love that grows […]

Surmounting Death

On Christmas Day, 2018, my wife Elizabeth underwent a three-and-a-half hour operation to remove malignant pancreatic cancer from her pancreas. The operation is known as the Whipple procedure. Part of her pancreas was removed, along with her gall bladder and some sections of her intestines, and a new hookup of her internal organs was implemented. […]

In & Out

James Hilgendorf is a writer, speaker, poet, and filmmaker. His books cover a wide range of subjects – religion, politics, economics, science, social issues, the future of America. A highly-acclaimed filmmaker, his travel films and documentaries have been seen around the world. He is a long-time member of the SGI, or Soka Gakkai International, the […]

America – The Land Where You Lived Forever

America is the land where Death has buried itself the deepest. Covered over from the very beginning of the Republic, buried away upon the darkened American prairies, no longer to be noticed or mentioned. There were voices, here and there, faint prophets in the wilderness, but they were drowned out by the sound of railroad […]

Death, the Door, Here in America.

DEATH, THE DOOR The smell of death wafts upon the winds of the world. Death is at the heart of the world’s wounds. We can go our merry way, smartphones and superbowls, the stock market gyrating up and down, our eyes glued to our fluctuating fortunes, black Fridays bodies pushing and shoving into the crowded […]

Waking Up To Who You Really Are – Talk by James Hilgendorf, Santa Barbara, Ca. Wednesday, 1-11-2017

James Hilgendorf, author of “Life & Death: A Buddhist Perspective”, will be speaking on Wednesday, January 11th, at Unity of Santa Barbara, sponsored by the Santa Barbara, California chapter of the International Association for Near Death Experiences. Many people who have gone through near-death experiences, talk of crossing a bridge or river, or going through […]

Traveling to a New America – Life & Death & Happiness in Walnut Creek, Ca.

Walnut Creek, California. A prosperous, upscale community where you would expect to find at least the average amount of that illusive quality called happiness. What is happiness anyway?  Ask a thousand people, and you might get a thousand different answers. Money in the bank.  A good job.  A wonderful girl friend or boy friend, or […]

Who Are You When You Die?

What happens after we die?  There are many, many answers. I put together a short list of answers that came to my mind.  What do you think? _____________ James Hilgendorf is a filmmaker, speaker, and the author of ten non-fiction books, including “The Buddha and the Dream of America”. To arrange speaking engagements, contact the […]